What Disenchantment Will Do To You
by Carly Stephan
Losing your enchantment with life may seem inconsequential at first. And it may even BE inconsequential if it’s just a passing phase, and you have the tools and tricks to winch your way out of it.
The sneaky thing about disenchantment though, is that it’s a screwy little motherf*cker, who creeps into the crevices of your life, and before you know it – has you in its greasy vice-like grip, adding a wash of grey and disdain for everything to your existence. And my GOD is it tough to shake loose.
This past weekend, through a powerful process I was taken through by the amazing Marcela Widrig, I began to see the ways I’d allowed disenchantment to leak into me in the past little while.
It wasn’t until I was physically moving the pattern of ‘I don’t get to do what I want’ through my body (full of resentment, frustration and icky childhood huffiness), that I realised I’d recently been losing my grip on the magical life I’ve been cultivating.
Here are some of the signs and hallmarks that you too may be unsuspectingly squeezed by disenchantment.
You’ve become increasingly whiny and victim-y: you’re really externally focused on what it is ‘outside’ of you that has made you feel this way
You’re retreating from life, and energetically withdrawing – making yourself small and unnoticeable
You’re fearful of staking your claim and taking up space in the world
You think you don’t matter
You feel like you cannot get what you want
Your boundaries are constantly being overstepped – first by you, and then by others. They’re also leaky, murky and permeable
You shy away from supportive decisions that you know will help you and your highest potential
You’re constantly seeking permission – from your spouse, friends, family. Sorry is a frequently used word in your vocabulary.
If any of these signs are calling you, holler! This is a freaking woeful state to be in, hey?
And it is time to begin making decisions that help you realise YOU ARE HERE in this magical life of yours and YOU MATTER.
Your experience of it ALSO MATTERS. The magic matters.
During this past weekend’s workshop, I danced the pattern of ‘not getting to do what I want’ through my body and cried the tears of frustration at myself for not having remained vigilant to the boundaries I was over-stepping, within myself.
I moved, cried and FELT it all until all I was left with was potent energy searing through my body.
The magic of being present with it, and feeling it all, brought me right back into my body – and SOOOO ready to take up space again.
I am also SO FREAKING glad to have done this during this week because it’s a cosmically powerful week to choose differently, change the story – and make the changes we want to see in our lives become manifest.
It’s the Lunar New Year and Solar Eclipse on Thursday, which will see the close of a super potent eclipse portal – between last month’s Super Blue Blood Red (with a cherry on top) Full Moon Eclipse and the upcoming Solar Eclipse this Thursday.
The cosmos is in full support of us GOING BIG – and make the decisions that are supportive of our wellbeing, vibrancy and juicy presence in the world.
Just start with one decision – if you found a hallmark of disenchantment in the list I wrote above. What ONE THING can you commit to or begin, that’s going to turn that sucker around, and have you feeling the MAGIC again? Just one thing.